Well, Duane might be right in most cases. Of course, going back to the Disney cartoons where there are contradictory voices floating around your head, the angel and the devil, it is a matter of deciding which voice is the appropriate one to listen to. Sometimes (actually most if not all of the time) it is the devil that has the more interesting idea. And occasionally it isn’t a bad idea to follow that. And sometimes again, it is difficult to ascertain which is the angel and which the devil that is whispering to you. But if the devil (and don’t forget that Duane did a mighty convincing self-portrait of himself as the devil) says to you “wouldn’t it be interesting if you were to walk off that cliff” then you probably shouldn’t listen. And in the cartoons, poor old Sylvester was always worse off listening to the devil.
I’m not sure which of those little voices has spoken the most sense to me over the past couple of weeks, but it sure has been a tug-o-war. In the end, the voice that said “Quit” has won. So just tonight I’ve filled in and posted the form to withdraw my enrolment from the Graduate Certificate in Visual Art.
The reasons are manifold, but I think the best way to sum it up is to say that it wasn’t something I felt my pursuing was going to get me where I want to go with my art. I think taking photographs will get me there. I don’t think that an understanding of where what I am trying to say lies in the history of art will improve my ability to do that one iota. Of course there is more, much more to it than that, but that’s it in a nutshell: it would be kind of useless to me for what I want to do.
Whether that was the angel or the devil having the final say, I’m not too sure.